I’m just me

I’m just an ordinary person,
we are just ordinary people,
so why? why do we want fame? fortune? money? brand names?

why is it getting more difficult for me to become thankful?
why is it getting more difficult for me to realize popularity and all materialistic things aren’t what I want in life?
Why is it that I changed into someone I despise?
Why is it that I’m slowly becoming selfish? obnoxious? self-centered? competitive?

i hate seeing myself this way.
Please make me stop.
Make me stop acting this way.
Tell me I can still enjoy life, with only what I have and God.