I’m just me

I’m just an ordinary person,
we are just ordinary people,
so why? why do we want fame? fortune? money? brand names?

why is it getting more difficult for me to become thankful?
why is it getting more difficult for me to realize popularity and all materialistic things aren’t what I want in life?
Why is it that I changed into someone I despise?
Why is it that I’m slowly becoming selfish? obnoxious? self-centered? competitive?

i hate seeing myself this way.
Please make me stop.
Make me stop acting this way.
Tell me I can still enjoy life, with only what I have and God.

Year books

WOAH!! yup, thats my yearbook! i don’t mean to show off~ but..lol jks~ i acutally just noticed that since our school’s students got their yearbook, and are handing it to every single perosn they know to sign it. I think that’s nice, but on my page actual…only 4 people signed it, 4 of my closest friends. They were the people who made close memories with me, and who we truly cared for. It was awkwared for me when other people asked me to sign their yearbook, when I’ve only met the once or twice (and the fact that we got it during thanks giving so i had to write “happy thanksgiving?”). Why not force your close friends to write essays like me?? lol, its important to have aquantances, but remember, though you may have X amount of names on your page, that this isn’t a popularity contest,  but a page in the yearbook to remind your of all the memories you made with the people that you care about.